Nope

It has been a long time since my last posting. A LOT has changed. I feel like I have aged 2 years in the past 6 months. Lots of change, lots of questioning myself. For anyone who has followed my blog/social media over the past few years, a lot of it is nothing but positive. Which is great, but lets be honest.... it's not always a reality. Sometimes I don't think I can even pretend that everything is OK. I'm beginning to learn that its OK, if everything isn't OK or doesn't appear to be OK to others.

Over the past 2 months I read "let my people go surfing" by Yvon Chouinard, Found out I was allergic to wheat, and all nuts, started an internship, picked up a side job helping a friend market a YouTube channel, become the VP of PRSSA at the U, watched a friend go through a divorce, tried to figure out how to stay in touch with my now long distance sister, watched my friend struggle with his own fathers suicide, lost some of my favorite professional skiers to avalanches, just to name a few.

It finally hit me the other day that, I have been missing out on a lot of the little things that I loved so much by making myself as busy as possible in order to achieve a better job once I finish school this December. I pushed my limits and I have found my limits. I'm not sure exactly what sparked the discussion within myself, but I have been contemplating simplifying things for a while. It never really seemed like much of an option until recently.

Like a snake, I have begun to shed a my excess skin this past week. I will no longer be working at Solitude Mountain Resort as a ski instructor. I am taking at least this season off to focus on myself, get lost in my skiing and to have fun with friends and family over the holidays. I just finished writing the e-mail that I am resigning as the VP of the PRSSA club. Those two aren't much, but they are definitely something. I have a tendency to be too much of a "yes" man when it comes to work. Sometimes you just have to say no. I'm exhausted constantly and on edge about work and school frequently. For someone who lived on an island, I have lost a lot of my island life. It's time for me to simplify. I just want to say publicly that I love dad Rob, mom Sue, sister Katie, girlfriend Courtney, family and friends. Without your love and support I would likely be in a lot worse state. It feels good to finally feel like I can focus my efforts on what matters most in life - the people I share it with.

Here are a few photos I have taken with my new camera. I quite like telling stories through pictures.

http://www.adventure-journal.com/2014/10/essay-thoughts-on-honoring-the-dead-and-the-living/

Don't Stop Breaking Down the Doors

-Kam-