Last few weeks

The past few weeks have been quite a wild ride. Prioritizing my life a little bit professionally in hopes to hopefully have a career right when I finish school. It's weird to start planning for the next big step in life so soon. Less than two months of school left and then I will be done. Luckily I saved some of the my fun classes for the end of my undergraduate career.

I think I finally got a hold on what has been making me sick. After an EDG and a colonoscopy, doctors determined that everything looks normal.. After eliminating all wheat and nuts from my diet, I am finally getting back to full strength. It is weird feeling like I am recovering from something with no other visible signs other than having lost 14-16 lbs in the past two months. Unfortunately I think most of it was due to atrophy. Just a few short weeks to push hard and get back in great shape before the ski season officially begins. I am stoked as ever to get on the slopes again this year.

It feels good to finally feel well after months of low energy. Having energy to exercise and work hard feels amazing. Things seem to finally be looking up for me a bit. Grateful, stoked, ready.

Here are a few shots from my wilderness photography class I took.

We visited Capitol Reef National Park in Southern Utah for a weekend to do some light painting and simple nature shots. Hopefully some of the tricks I learned this past weekend will help me shoot some sweet ski shots this winter!

Don't Stop Breaking Down the Doors

-Kam

Nope

It has been a long time since my last posting. A LOT has changed. I feel like I have aged 2 years in the past 6 months. Lots of change, lots of questioning myself. For anyone who has followed my blog/social media over the past few years, a lot of it is nothing but positive. Which is great, but lets be honest.... it's not always a reality. Sometimes I don't think I can even pretend that everything is OK. I'm beginning to learn that its OK, if everything isn't OK or doesn't appear to be OK to others.

Over the past 2 months I read "let my people go surfing" by Yvon Chouinard, Found out I was allergic to wheat, and all nuts, started an internship, picked up a side job helping a friend market a YouTube channel, become the VP of PRSSA at the U, watched a friend go through a divorce, tried to figure out how to stay in touch with my now long distance sister, watched my friend struggle with his own fathers suicide, lost some of my favorite professional skiers to avalanches, just to name a few.

It finally hit me the other day that, I have been missing out on a lot of the little things that I loved so much by making myself as busy as possible in order to achieve a better job once I finish school this December. I pushed my limits and I have found my limits. I'm not sure exactly what sparked the discussion within myself, but I have been contemplating simplifying things for a while. It never really seemed like much of an option until recently.

Like a snake, I have begun to shed a my excess skin this past week. I will no longer be working at Solitude Mountain Resort as a ski instructor. I am taking at least this season off to focus on myself, get lost in my skiing and to have fun with friends and family over the holidays. I just finished writing the e-mail that I am resigning as the VP of the PRSSA club. Those two aren't much, but they are definitely something. I have a tendency to be too much of a "yes" man when it comes to work. Sometimes you just have to say no. I'm exhausted constantly and on edge about work and school frequently. For someone who lived on an island, I have lost a lot of my island life. It's time for me to simplify. I just want to say publicly that I love dad Rob, mom Sue, sister Katie, girlfriend Courtney, family and friends. Without your love and support I would likely be in a lot worse state. It feels good to finally feel like I can focus my efforts on what matters most in life - the people I share it with.

Here are a few photos I have taken with my new camera. I quite like telling stories through pictures.

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Don't Stop Breaking Down the Doors

-Kam-